i really miss her

my dear,khanh linh

every day feels heavier, because i keep expecting your voice to spill through my phone like sunlight slipping through the blinds, warming everything. i  crave the scent of weeds on your skin, and that secret grin when you caught me staring at you quietly. "Em nhớ chị nhiều lắm,chị có biết không? - honey,i really miss you,can you feel it?". i know, she knows, we both know we were too toxic together, so maybe letting go really was the only right decision.

our last conversation was actually simple: either we carry this weight, or we stop. we both stop. i folded away my “what if,” and tried to iron out the frayed edges of my heart.

but still, i don’t think we’ve reached “never” yet. i dared to suggest the wild idea of keeping us as friends.she called me unreasonable — because in her world, i can only belong to her. you want my love to stay chained to you, even when you won’t stand by me. and somehow, i keep letting you take pieces of me i’ll never get back <3

"baby,can you see through the tears?
love you more than those b*tches before"

nhớ chị,always.