I have no real friends

anyone else feel lonely even when you're with people that care about you? I don't know why but I don't think I've actually had a real friend for about 8 years. Someone who actually cares and likes to be in your company. In friend groups I feel invisible. Its like a social black hole purgatory. My family doesn't know what I like even though they see me everyday. they don't take interest in my hobbies or care about what I do with my life in a real way. I try to step out of my comfortable zone and say "hi", but people brush me off like I'm a fuckin NPC. I don't feel good about socializing with others cause it goes nowhere. no bonds. no friendships. nothing. Girls are out of the question. I'm too afraid I'll get destroyed on the spot and my peers will never let me live it down. My anxiety skyrockets every time a girl even wants me for anything. Maybe I feel useless to them? or maybe myself. I don't know. part of me doesn't want to rip the band-aid, but' I'll have to do it someday.