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hey, what does it matter to you if i die? have you ever considered my feelings? i was born by random chance, and all the 'gift of life' has given me is misery and regret. sure, it's nihilistic, but this world has nothing to give me!
it's my body, my life, and my mind. it has nothing to do with anyone else if i choose to end it. it's ME, and i'll do whatever i want with ME, and i strongly disagree with people taking away my autonomy for their own selfish need to keep me breathing!
of course, i sound really ill. i am! but the problem is in my brain, and it's incurable. i am going to suffer with this for the rest of my life.
i'm planning to die very early (if you compare it to the average human lifespan) and i don't appreciate people telling me to 'just keep going,' because 'it'll get better!', when i'm sick for life. does it really bring anyone solace, to keep me here for 80 something years against my will?
until someone finds a cure for my ailment, i won't change my plans, and i won't tolerate people whining about it!!!!!!!!!!
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#Haytaaslan#
If your illness doesn't ache like back pain then it's not that bad trust me.
My great grandma used to tell us that she wanted to die cause she was always sick and her joints always hurting like torture. Getting no rest.
Yeah, Most of us here would probably not care whether you died or not. All we're doing is leaving a comment and only remembering this interaction for the next few days at most but still, we are trying to help at least a bit by typing these.
If you really think it's unbearable to live then do it, it's your choice. We're just people trying to make you see stuff in a different angle in our own ways.
it doesn't matter what i have, if we're talking about the core of my point. all that matters is that it's incurable.
i believe that if suffering is guaranteed to last forever, the sick shouldn't be treated as insane or selfish for wanting to end it on their own terms. if you were told that your life from now on would include a never-ending fever, would you appreciate people telling you to get over it for their sake?
in that case, i'm sure you could find fulfillment, even with a permanent fever. but if you didn't want to exist in a constant state of drowsy overheating, what right does anyone have to force you to?
of course, i don't have an infinite fever. i'd rather not disclose my personal information. but i'll never be able to exist like other people do. i take a bucket of pills every day, and that only brings me to semi-normalcy.
i do live being alive, and there's still a lot i'd like to do! but when i get tired, i'll do as i wish with my body, and end it. i'm not going to anytime soon, but my point is that nobody has any right to try and prolong my life against my will.
by pokoshi; ; Report
I just remembered suicide being illegal in some countries lmao
by #Haytaaslan#; ; Report
Chocolate
Hey, I know you are being in a very hard time of yours, and I’ve been there also, that I b liege everyone’s story is unique and had there own reason and difficulties. I got an advice, try to read Nietzsche’s book, if you feeling like nothing matter in the world, then just let it be meaningless, forcing yourself to find purpose is a torture for yourself, seek help in philosophy by yourself, it’s the most honest answer you can get for yourself. Never regret!
Sorry for a lot of typo, I wrote that on tram. Or maybe Arthur Schopenhauer’s could be helpful, who knows? Just give it some try.
by Chocolate; ; Report
what meaning can i find in neverending agony, caused by an illness entirely out of my control?
i'll do whatever needs to be done, and end it on my own terms. i don't find unnecessary suffering endearing (-_-)zzz
by pokoshi; ; Report
Loveland frogman𓆏
ok by that same logic why did you write this post, we don't truly care about you we don't know who you are. your thoughts don't matter so why put them out in the world
why not? your existence is meaningless, so why are you alive? for no reason. why are you so obsessed with purpose?
by pokoshi; ; Report
zada
bro's got a point, live it up until youre through twin
YEP!!!!!!! （^人^）
by pokoshi; ; Report
chuddie
the world has given us nothing and so it's up to us to make something out of it
austin
All of are bodies are own by the lord.
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Jesus will heal from your misery if you pray to him.
by austin; ; Report
you're delusional. seek help, rofl
by pokoshi; ; Report
Wow i never saw that cutting of my genital's, increase my dopamine receivers so much that my life is miserable, and trust the government into controlling me is sane.
by austin; ; Report
what the fuck are you talking about
by pokoshi; ; Report
Kings
Type shit ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) <3
yuki
truth nuke
KImisquid
You'll find A Way Out Of Here but please don't use this one, there is so much fun things to try while being alive. So please if you really want to die this badly I have a list of things you have to do and you tell me if you still want to die.
-Experience love
-Parachute jump
-Climb Everest
-runaway
-make music
-Met a best friend
-Made the most disgusting thing to eat and give to someone
-run under the rain
-Know more about a religion
-Try a new Sport
-Buy the thing of your dream
-try to stop addiction
-Go to parties because you're still young and parties are cool
-Vent to a random person you just met on the street and exchange number and actually get closer him
-Prank people
-Clean your room
-Runaway of all your problems, if you're really on the edge , you have nothing to lose
i have a lifelong incurable illness. how is climbing everest going to help me with that
by pokoshi; ; Report
D0n V0LTAG5!!!!1(super epik)
But please don’t..I care! Even if don’t meet,even if we don’t know each other,it’s still feels sad leaving ye hanging,I don’t want for anyone to feel shittier than me,that’s my joke after all,so please,if you want some hugs or idk just ask me,il could do it,after all its ok to have hugs:(
do you?do you?do you?do you?do you?do you?do you?
by pokoshi; ; Report
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by D0n V0LTAG5!!!!1(super epik); ; Report