my dream last night

i was on a bed , just woke up and i decided to die.i laid there and thought if i think of it enough i will really die. then it went black and then found myself sinked  under my bed.i looked around ... there were 2  lost  necklases with colorful glass beads. maybe one was blue and purple,one was green one was purple,one was blue one was green  i am not so sure. there was 2 or 3 playing cards.you know queen of cups ,spades ,joker type of cards i dont know if they have a more specific name. and i  was a trapped ghost i guess i couldnt go to anywhere else then under the bed .

i was spending my time , thinking what  i did ... couldnt even spend my time playing with the beads or the cards . then a girl came in and we talked. i felt understoon and i could leave after that .i went to a school.

 it was night but  there were  people . there was a religious woman and i argued with her i dont remember why . i went to an empthy classroom with no lights on but there was light coming from the halls of the school. the same woman passed and i started singing a siouxie and the banshees  song and my singing started making her tweak . she was really mad. then i woke up freezing at 5a.m.