first time drawing in like 1-3 years

i normally draw like once year most cus i hate how it allways turns out not how i want i drew this one other day and i don't rlly like it i put my favorite colors like light yellow the purple and dark red bc u liked hot they went together and even teal and i love furr so i tried to put that to but im probably not gonna draw again just bc my art style is just super out proportions and like just goes tg in my mind hard to describe bc i cant see my brain thoughts exactly or hold onto them long enough to remember or even thought process thru then