i feel so deep but not really am #im14andthisisdeep!!!

i feel like ive got so much to offer, u know?? and there are so many things about me that i dont think anyone will truly know irl without me having to tell them. and vice versa, there will be so many things i wont notice about others and no one else ever will. there will be only one person to ever truly understand you fully, and your highly unlikely to meet them in your lifetime.

like, my favourite colour is pink, but i think every colour is beautiful. i love babies, toddlers and small animals and whoever doesnt like them to the point of saying that they should die or that they wish they dont exist deserve a special place in a torture chamber ran exclusively by me. my favourite season is summer. i love to bake cookies and muffins and etc for others, though i personally dont like them and barely eat them. im 80% paleo but cant help myself around yoghurt. i prefer vinegar as a dressing for literally everything. learn to fly by the foo fighters is better than everlong, fight me. ive got a pretty high spice tolerance. i can surf, but not very well. i used to do gymnastics when i was three but i still rock at cartwheels. my favourite dog breed are english bullterriers and so are my dads'. i look just like my dad to the tee. i want to collect cds and have a huge collection. i love to sing, though i cant tell whether im good or not, but nor do i care. i want to move to brazil and become a lawyer when im older. im overly optimistic but because i cant stand watching pessimism take over and everything lose hope and colour. i randomly meditate and do yoga when i want to feel like a hippie. i cant stand the fake strawberry scent and the scent of gummy worms. im totally covered in freckles from the sun. i have a birthmark on my right middle finger which i call the shit stain. i have to always do the L for Left trick with my hands. i cant read a clock, nor do i plan to learn. my dream job if money didnt matter would be to be a nanny or a famous actor/model. i have longer hair than average (down to my waist) and im really protective over it, no one can touch it except non-greasy friends and family. i believe in both heaven and reincarnation. i unironically think i look like ana paulo arosio with just thinner eyebrows and im content in my stupidity. i live for old grainy baby photos, as well as old grainy photos, full stop. i cant see the beauty in nz as a local, but so many others do when they come here from abroad. i love monkeys. i am incredibly shy yet incredibly annoyingly (hopefully not) loud and cheesy as a friend. i make the worst dad jokes and am proud. only in dreams is the best weezer song, and weezer is infact a great band. 

and, i could go on and on. you probably could too. if you search deep in your inner self, you can find things that you dont even realise you do. and doing something liek this could help you find so many things, just dumping stuff out. if your trying to find yourself in any capacity, this could help

but i feel more than i am on the surface, i feel like i could be so open but i cant be. there isnt the situation or time or place or interest. so thats why im dumping it on u guys, lol. u guys as in the no one that reads this. but im ok with that. :D 

oh and i love cute underwear and cute clothes 

also life update, im gonna hang out with my friends from before highschool tmrw bc i went to a private and they all went to a public, then the day after that with my new friends at my hs bc we have a long leave weekend bc of the boarders so yay!! im excited. friendship is truly magic and the meaning of life is to fuck around and find out because mistakes make us grow and shape who we become. our experiences are the end result and we're truly just a lump of wet clay. 

ok. bye. peace and love, stay safe, be happy, kiss that person, take that chance, ace that test or fail it, do whatever the fuck you want because you wont be young forever and no ones opinions will matter when you're dead and your left with regret. YOLO!!!

 xxoooxoxoxoox, love from ellie

also i love motivational quotes. idc what any1 says, that shit is good for the soul.

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