#4 thinking about love

Heyy! I don't know where to discuss this, so I thought my blog would be the best place, since no one reads it lol!

Basically, for context, I've had this friend for about a year now; our anniversary was a month ago, but we didn't do much to celebrate it. We're pretty close, and we tell each other everything and there's rarely anything tmi between us. And I just finished rewatching "Words Bubble Up Like Soda Pop" because I saw someone online mentioning it and thought I should watch it again. 

And a few weeks ago they mentioned that they wouldn't be surprised if we got together since we're so close. So I've been thinking about it ever since. "What if we WERE a couple?" and after rewatching that movie, I wrote a short poem about them and even plan on making a song about them! Idk what I should do about these feelings!! Sometimes, I even fantasize (SFW!!) about hanging out with them and pretending that we're together. I'm sorry if I sound weird or crazy, I just have to put this out there. I'm just trying to figure out why I'm staying up past my usual bedtime to think about my friend who probably doesn't even like me like that! Besides, whenever they do flirt with me, it usually has a sexual undertone, and I would just giggle at it or even rarely flirt back. If anyone out there who reads niche blogs could help me out, I'd appreciate it!

This is the short poem I made about them if anyone's curious:

"Myoga hair shines in the summer sky, the distant wind catches my eye.

Sunsets fall as hair chops off, i laugh, as you scoff."

Myoga is a ginger plant, it's a perennial herb and a member of the ginger family, also native to Japan.