stupidities

I hate people, I really hate them. My "friends" barely talk to me, my supposed "best friend" sometimes stops by and ends up making a fool of me, these last few days I've been spending them alone, simply because since I don't text them anymore, they don't. I can't even be myself in a friendship, I once was, yes, because I thought that like my best friend (from those years) I should have been hers too, but no, I never considered myself a best friend because I had like a thousand best friends, since then I've felt stupid in friendships, I've tried to improve and adapt but nothing works for me, one way or another I'll be alone. On top of that, my shitty sister has always been the "prettiest" of the two, even though the vast majority of people tell me I'm prettier than her. Even though she barely has any friends, at least she has one, unlike me. Well, the thing is that she always does well at everything, she always gets attention, she's always everything, she's more sociable, prettier, nicer. It's hard for me to do all of that, and I haven't even been dressing up, so I feel like shit.