thanks for wasting my time MOM (awful negative blog entry )

Thank you so much mother. I was one step away to getting something I actually need only for you to ruin it. I am disappointed

I'm not feeling happy as i type all of this out.

I do not care if you do not side with me or how you think that im being disrespectful. I am close to signing an emancipation contract. anything anyone says or think about this situation does not change the fact that I'm mad at my own mother

Today, me and this thrift store in ebay made an offer to pick up that was super worth the steal. It was a small, authentic Ibanez guitar amplifier that i really NEED for my electric for 22 dollars only, just so you know they gave me a 20-percent discount off which means the original price was around 28 dollars. mind you the amplifier was super cheap because nobody in the store was musical and they wanted it gone quick. it was also tested and still working. their location was around which we will call the Anderson Station. The store told me that they can let me pick up this heavenly sounded guitar speaker machine before 3:45pm. It was 2pm that time so I was able to get out and wait for the bus for a few minutes on the way to Anderson. Being very excited to buy this amplifier, I tell my mom I'm going out. Suddenly my mom then said "What? Why out?" and I explained to her why I was going out.

You know what she said? "Go back home right now"

Mind you that the Anderson bus was about to come to the stop a few seconds after waiting for a long time only to go back home. When I went back inside, she goes "Don't buy i can buy better than that you are a kid do not go out do not" which doesn't even make sense because I've been outside town, doing solo travels for a very long time. How does she not remember? And no mother, i will not let you buy something for me. I have my own money. I have enough money to buy that precious old thing but then you think "i buy it for u" My mother in Christ i must not let you. I've been wanting to independently buy something for SO long.

A few seconds after, me and the woman argue Obviously. Then I go to my room to give myself some time and cry a river because they just started to close for the day so i have to wait 24 more hours to actually go to the store.

But thats not where it ends yet

an hour passes by, my mom goes to my room

i look at her with my soulless eyes

just to hear her say

"You must go to the Anderson station for Bible study"

You wanna know what I thought?: Did you just waste my time

because

What the fuck man. what the fuck. did you just really send me back to my room because you don't want me to go to the thrift store at anderson just to go back to anderson station for fucking

Bible Study

the store was already closed too. 

after that i just did the worst probably-not-worth-it crashout. Because if i was already at anderson would have just waited two more hours for the bible study because it was a few train stations away and the travelling could have killed some time Atleast. My brothers and sisters do you understand me? Do you see what I have to deal with most of the time?

I don't hate my mom. I DON'T. but right now I am just done with everything she does. it is her and her fucking helllll-of-a-lunatic christian friends. She even tried to cut my phone bill off because she saw a facebook post about how Roblox is the second coming of the antichrist

she is guilty right now. that's okay. still not gonna change my mind. I am not a "forgive and forget" person I can forgive her but ill never forget this.

not cool mom. not cool.