I AM BACK EVERYONE BUT I AM SCARED FOR SCHOOL HELP ME

I know you guys missed me... right... anyways uhh I come back to this website like once a month because that is how my brain works. I am starting high school this year and I am SCARED. I went to an orientation thingy last week and I actually don't know how I am going to do this. The school is huge, everyone is like a foot taller than me (I am a whopping 5 feet and 2 inches) and I will probably be in classes with 11th graders because little old me decided to be a nerd. And on top of that I doubt I will have lunch with the rest of the freshmen because my third period is the one that is with 11th graders and that means I will have lunch with them. I cannot do this guys.

I started crocheting a blanket a week ago but I just picked it up again and I have been making slight progress with it. It's basically just one huge granny square so it doesn't require much thought (I can't keep track of stitches for the life of me) so yippee.

I got new penpals like 3 months ago and sent out letters and I haven't heard from a single one yet. They're all mostly in Europe so I hope the mail service just decided to be slow but uhh yeah I hope at least one writes back to me. I had penpals in elementary school but I decided I wanted them again.

But is the shirt fire or no...

My favorite video is the intro to this Super Junior U performance (just the first 7 seconds) and I made a 10 minute long video of the intro on repeat because AGH its just the sound effects are so perfect and they make my ears feel so nice. It also reminds me of trauma center new blood on the Wii (please tell me you know what I am talking about). Also that game is so hard idk how people play it. My heart starts racing and I haven't played it in a WHILE but it is so flipping difficult T_T. 

Another thing I did - I went to summer camp. It was a week long overnight camp and we were in platform tents so there were a ton of bugs (I love bugs though. Also on the topic of insects my mom is finally letting me get hissing roaches!!) but it was so flipping hot T_T but I made a lot of friends and it was very fun.

I can't think of anything else to say. I want to start writing more blog entries on here because I talk too much in group chats and my friends ignore me </3

Actually I would like to rant about said friends. I was crashing out a few nights ago and I was like actually going insane because no one was responding to me and then I was met with the message of "I am reading just not responding" ... I was literally ranting about how my dad was ignoring me and how I was flipping lonely (haha loser) and the people I was ranting to didn't care to talk to me either so uhh yeah I almost threw my phone out my window and I was SOBBING.

Anyways enough of that, I have like 5 fanfics I have been neglecting that I need to finish writing. And no you do not get the privilege of knowing my ao3 and aff accounts thank you very much.

Okay bye