social media addiction sucks

i hate being so glued to social media all the time.

ive spent so many years of my life (yes, literal years.. im talking since elementary/middle school) scrolling or posting endlessly on social media. to this day, i rot on instagram reels for so many hours each day. it has made me stupider (which is horrible, considering im studying engineering right now), and has demotivated me from wanting to do literally anything else.

learn a new language? nope, ill just scroll instead because its easier. study my courses? nah, why do that when i can just lay in bed instead? going out and socializing? no thanks, ill just watch some silly cat videos or something.

even now, ive spent all day trying to study before the upcoming school year and its just been a horrible struggle. 

just wish i knew how to genuinely fix this. ive tried so many things (yes, including deleting social media and putting these apps behind a lock), and it just doesnt work.

honestly, its not even just social media addiction, its a full-blown phone addiction.

its so bad to the point where i went to therapy for it. my addiction is comparable to those with a drug addiction, or a porn addiction, or literally any other addiction out there. my brain has been rewired to the point where i cannot function without my phone being in my hand or in my pocket. it makes my life extremely miserable. i wouldnt wish this upon even my worst enemies.

rant over, thx