i want to kms

i cant get a job or my liscenes or anything because my mom has to sign papers and i havent talked to her in 1 year almost 2 and idek if im going to be able to do anything because of my mom i feel like she hates me and she shouldnt have had kids at all i have 2 other siblings thats she treats as her kids but with me im just some random child she took in ig i wish i could punch her in the face 50 times