Happy Birthday 2 Me!

Honestly speaking, I NEVER know what to say on my own birthday. I just spazz out in excitement because I know how my inner child just feeds on being excited about something so fleeting. Though, these past few days I've been anguishing the thought of time passing by, even the smallest moments like this one, when I'm typing out this message to the internet and slowly thinking to myself: "Wow, that was 5 seconds ago?" As if I'm trying to hang onto the present for just a few moments, knowing well that it will only flee away from me with every millisecond I attempt to preserve. It's sickening, I know, but what I also know is that these feelings will also be fleeting due to the brain fog that senior year had left me to deal with on my own. What's important to me now is that it's finally over and will most likely be something I won't have on my list of moments that require the utmost attention and need for preservance anymore. Even as I'm writing this message, I can almost feel the bad vibe slip away. What's important to note is that I still got a family looking out for me and a brand new birthday trip awaiting me, this time in Miami. However, it won't be the last of me that Florida gets, because HELLO? I'M GOING TO F*CKING COLLEGE? But, all of that aside, I'm grateful for all of my 19 years alive on this earth and all of the care and love that it's given me, even the hate that I've had to face somewhere along the way. I'm grateful enough that I wanted to make a blog post about it on a nearly forgotten site that's kind of similar to myspace, but we won't delve far off into that.

Thank you everyone who's been my buddy on here and thank you all for reading this message.

All the best,

Jurgen.