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I have no one!!!!
Why is it so hard to find a guy, seriously. I'm 15 and have never been a real relationship...I'm so behind.
All I want is a nice, strange, geeky dude to love me. Is that too much to ask for? I've seen a lot of girls talking about their love for nerdy boys, and I've fallen victim to the rush...gosh they're so cute.
I'm not JUST talking about a guy with glasses, nothing stereotypical, I'm talking about a dude obsessed with Star Wars or DC or ANYTHING! (Star Wars would be helpful for me though, since I'm just now getting into it and I'd love to know everything about it)
Then again, I don't only have a thing for nerds and geeks, I love emos and goths and punks...I might even go as far to say I don't have a type!
I'm so open, yet I've never had a guy like me...am I too weird?
The guys I have/do have an interest in at my school aren't into girls like me, or at least that's what I think. I'm not the prettiest at all, and in all honesty I think me being a weird black girl is part of why guys don't like me...I'm not ashamed of who I am, but people in my town aren't as open, especially the guys.
I'm so delusional too. I see a cute guy at the store or something, and I think his small, thoughtless glance at me is some sort of connection...it's embarrassing how pathetic I am.
I think I'm capable of love some days, others I just think I'm completely hopeless. I've heard that love comes when you're not looking, but the problem is I am ALWAYS LOOKING! I can't help myself!!
I'll just keep praying for a cute, nice, mature, loving, nerdy, alternative, sweetheart of a boy to materialize in front of me one day or something....then we go to the mall together and giggle at each others stupid jokes.
One day, hopefully...
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hqayts
I really wish I didn't live in South America. Here it's the other way around: girls look for strong idiots who talk nonsense and want to get high with them (obviously not all of them, but the fact that there are girls like that worries me in itself). So far, I literally haven't found anyone, BUT NO ONE, with whom I can talk about what interests me. I'd love to talk for hours and hours about my hyperfixations...
Oh my freaking gosh, that's kinda what happens with the people at my school. From what I know, they never connect, then some big dramatic breakup happens and it's the talk of the town for like a week. Idk why it's such a struggle to find someone genuine!!!!!
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Elia🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🧷🍂
Fr I NEED a gf like thatttt T-T
Ronan
coming from someone that used to feel exactly like you... it will genuinely come to you on its own!! i didnt get into my first 'serious' relationship until I was 16,5 something like that and i would even consider that lucky i guess? all im saying is, put yourself out there, talk to people, if you see a cute guy at the store then try talking to him!! if he tells you to fuck off, then you fuck off!!! if you just start thinking like that life gets a lot easier... and this probably sounds like bullshit and everyone says stuff like this but they say it because it works!!! i put myself out there for the first time in a while and i met my current girlfriend (and hopefully my last girlfriend ever!!) so yeah anyways tldr dont worry about it, it will come wow i sound old
Thanks so much dude. Seriously other peoples good experiences gives me some hope for my own! Finding love doesn't take over my life or anything, but I think about it a lot, so I'll definitely take your advice (also don't worry, you don't sound old xD)
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