Drowning

It is hard to breathe

It is hard to focus

When Love grips me this tightly

Desperate to keep me on the path

It thinks it has found for me

It is a hopeful path

But an imaginary one

Fruitless

It whispers to me a dream

Of a solitude disturbed

In the most beautiful of ways

I float upon it's waves

Waiting to wash up 

upon that shore

But I drift

I drift away

Far away

Until I drown

When I awake

From it's spell

There is a gasping for air

A desperation

There is a weight to my steps

That they did not have before

There is a deep wanting

from my Soul

It shows me a face

A smile

A memory of a laugh

That made it shine 

just a little brighter

Go and search

Knock on that door

Let your lips

Say that name again

And change that mind

That keeps yours

In this state

No

I think 

I'd rather drown

So I sit here

Chest tight

Listening to the playing

Of keys and strings

Attempting to loosen

The grip Love has on my heart

But they will set me back

On that path 

Paved with memories

And dreams

And whispers

And waves

And I will drown it all