introspections on limerence

ughhh my greatest enemy is limerence it's actually so bad for me,, like yk when you keep on yearning for that one person that's out of reach and you KNOW you're infatuated with the idea of them. But you can't stop :// vro...

Anyways here's a poem from my 3am collection ^_^ um most of these are just sentences incoherently strung together, and im no professional but i thought id just share lawl

Poem

Your piscean features parallels your ethereal soul

radiating cornflower blue.

Milky white skin, cretan porcelain that fractures light in my dreams.

I feel your heartbeat in everything, an agonising taunt, my weight to begrudgingly deflect.

Finite, these extracts of yourself, through these muted voices I orchestrate a symphony, a plastic soul constructed by the twisted nettles of my mind

The ache of limerence innocently disguised as a divine crossover, twin flames in the midst of this harsh world; incongruent with reality, the squinted eyes of my paradigm blur, morph and mould the dimensions of love.

The shatter of illusion, I am still vicariously scribbling a hollow story. The ink is peeling off these paper walls (it's been ages since we've talked).

You, bound to the suffocating walls of my paradigm.

You, the mystery embedded, etched, embraced in the recesses of my heart.

I'm addicted to the entropy of chase; so much breadth, these dimensions of potential.

You, the gentle soul whom I have never unconditionally loved. Which countless souls before me have. I wish they treat you well.

Keep squeezing the last drops of apologetics from me, an infinite well. I'm sorry, I would prostrate a thousand times, pleading, praying for a chance to love you for who you really are. i cling on to the hope that i didn't fuck it up. may the world be forever kind to you, sweet boy.

xoxo, c