Life as a Gen X loner!

It is all so quiet…. Like it is like the Death Valley in a cold winters day!

No sign of activity, or even a life signal from the depths of SpaceHey where all my great friends are either asleep, or high, drunk, or just well..  actively online due to binge watching Wednesday or having hanky panky!

But I am here, at a doctors surgery, waiting to see my local GP, having trouble with a heart that is kinda going bom boom daboomity boom! OK no.. I need a ECG done as the RSV I had with meds might have made my heart so slightly faster than usual.

I am close to 50!  Like I actually would never expect me to live this long and post about it!  Yes my past was wild!  Gen Xers lived a wild life in the 90s and 2000s!

Life of wild behaviour like drinking to excess in a dangerous manner did NOT make my life great!  Binge drinking is dangerous Gen Z!  Please take this warning seriously!

As for that hanky panky?  Well I had very limited dealings with that.. very sporadically and without the safety of that STI protection we all needed then!

But my mental health was the problem..  and a MAJOR one!  Because living with C-PTSD and schizophrenia is and will be the end of me.  But since last year, I had a turn around.

I became sober after seeing P!nk, after a Gen Z person, decided to drink and drive..  I am now 18 months sober.  And I have been thinking..  I need to stop being lonely.  I actually need a few friends that we can talk online, try to meet up and enjoy life.  But of course then the alarm bells go off!  

So what can I do, just be here alone and perish knowing that my life was for nothing.. but for music fans to dance on my songs through YouTube.  Since I went professional last year!