Log 17: August 10, 2025

I haven’t been active around here- I have trouble coming up with things to say.

It has been very difficult for the past few months. My mental health is on a consistent downward trajectory due to work, relationship, and life stressors in general— to the point where I heavily concerned one of my friends. I’m not going to go into too much detail to avoid being triggering, but I still struggle to see the point of going through the motions and staying alive. I also occasionally deal with urges to hurt myself.

However, as you can tell, I am still alive (Unfortunately).

I did manage to make…30+ sketches for Artfight last month, and I think I improved. I (tried) to do 2 a day, blocking out and tracing over poses on Pinterest. The last two weeks of July were when I crashed, though, so I wasn’t able to keep my streak up.

An online friend is coming to visit soon. I’m trying to cling to that since it’s something to look forward to. Or- well, it’s one of the things I try to cling onto. I’ve also been buying little clothes for blind box toys to give my life some whimsy and to dress up my little guys. Only the USD 6 ones though. Some can go up to 30 USD which is absurd. I’m not paying that much to clothe my ugly fucking lafufu.(I say that affectionately. Her face is lopsided and it made me laugh the first time I got her).