living with a thief

heyyy guys its been a week since i wrote on my blog. nothing much happened, i skipped like most of the school week cuz i was sick but i spent the whole time at home playing roblox. met a lot of cool people on the internet and made a lot of new friends. ahem i mean "connections" 

anyways what i really wanted to rant about is stupid but i get so worked up and emotional about it. ok so basically me and my older sister share a room, and each have our own shelves, tables, closet and beds which we divide equally. but she really has a problem with stealing my things/taking my things without my permission. like i get it if its less personal stuff and things we can share like hairdryers, books, art supplies. yeah we can share those things. but she takes my own personal things that she has her own too without my permission. she takes my clawclips, jewellery, headphones, anything basically. 

its not even about me being selfish or not wanting to share. its about my personal space and boundaries. my little corner of the room is my happy place and where i just wanna isolate away from everybody so it just means a lot to me. she has completely no respect for me or my things. she once took MY OWN PERSONAL NECKLACE that had my own pictures inside the locket (it meant the whole world to me so obviously i wouldnt want her to take it). she uses my perfume (that i essentially use everyday) EVEN THOUGH I BOUGHT HER HER OWN PERFUME. she uses my clothes and stretches them out until it looks loose on me (because shes bigger than me). she used my headphones until they broke. 

when i buy new headphones or purse and tell her she could have my old ones, she just always decides to just use my new ones anyways :D like u can have my old stuff SINCE U WANTED THEM SO BADLY RIGHT???

 i wouldnt even mind if she used them if she JUST ASKED. and she still has the audacity to just leave them laying around the house carelessly. its not that hard to put things back where u found them. and when i find out my shit is everywhere, im "crazy and selfish" for not wanting to share. do you understand why i dont wanna share stuff with you now???

 i've told her very nicely ON MULTIPLE OCCASIONS to at least ask before she uses my stuff. but one time, i was so fed up that i started shouting at her and she has the audacity to say "why can't you just tell me nicely?" I DID LIKE A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE BUT IT JUST DIDNT GO THROUGH UR HEAD. i felt so bad going off her like that but theres always ways she messes up my day and makes me go over the edge.

i love having my stuff on display on my shelf but she just makes me wanna burn my shelf down and just hide all my things away from her. like i specifically put my stuff on a certain hanger or a certain spot on my jewellery rack just to find out she messed it up. im telling u, going home from school and seeing ur room looking like it had been stripped searched is the one of the most gutwrenching things to me.

 god, im getting so worked up and emotional about this. it seems dumb but i really hate it. dont tell me im wrong for this. im very sure im being very reasonable about this. 

xoxo, aisha <3