I wish life wasn't cruel

I genuinely have no words to describe how I feel right now It started as a normal goddamn day. 

I was just messing around with my fiancé and thought things were going okay at first

Before I even went to the hospital I had this feeling but I told myself it was just Coincidence

I didn't want to believe it but I have to say it now

I miscarried the baby 

that I once feared, hoped for, and loved and now lost.

 I know I should've been more careful but I really thought I'd be fine and now I'm still on this impossible time crunch and still have to move out of this place, if you can even call it that It's just a damn trailer

My fiancé is trying so hard to help but we have almost nothing It's too hot inside and outside to even function. Barely any water, no food or food stamps

I haven't showered in days

nothing but these damn insect bites covering us All I wanted was to move somewhere safe and take care of my own little family. 

I don't want to seem desperate, but God, I'm so tired. I'll be starting a GoFundMe and taking art commissions again just trying to survive. My own family doesn't know any of this happened, and I can't tell them We just need help to get out of here and start over.