Kinda tired . . .

Of starring at the home waiting for a bell icon to suddenly flash

For someone to appear out of the blue to maybe have more than what I have

of wanting more than what I have

Tired of waiting...But...

X . * , doXen't mean I'll Xtop being my Xelf

X . * , doXen't mean I'll Xtop typing or being online ->

X . * ,juXt meanX I have to be ok with being alone

X . * ,juXt meanX I juXt have much growing to do->

X . * ,thiX ain't a cheeXey fucking poem

X . * ,It'X juXt my thoughtX in itX pureiXt form

I don't think I'll put my little fucking cool profile edit thing I'll just leave it blank and what not
It kinda sucks feeling this way on an online platform. Like HOW can you feel alone when there are
Hundreds if not THOUSENDS of people....The fuck man...But I'm not using this for others really.
I want to use this because I feel its fun. I need to remember this. Yes, I need to remember.

Shouldn't be to ungrateful, I'm sitting in a call with a friend and just texted someone so I'm not alone.

I just forget.
And I feel.
I think.

And the cycle continues. Because then I remember. And then I forget.
Fucking UGHSHDCUIHDVAOUVEOAHPVEHURAUPVEAPU
WHY AM I SO CONTRADICTING!!!
Silly silly me. Lolz.

*does a little dance*

Me and the friend are trying to make The Weeknd Esq music lolz, Its deff going.
They are so talented. Its so awesome.

Oop I feel like crying. This is what happens folks when you don't take your Joy. /ref

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Zombie (but hotter)

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Maybe start conversations and talk to people first then??? It's a social platform - if you aren't fine with waiting for people to approach first, then be the one initiating.
There's nothing to be shy about. If conversation feels awkward then that's it, move on and try again with someone else. You will find the right person to talk to eventually.
Don't complain if you're not willing to make a change.

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I have been but its just the certain type of person, and its the problem that I been "waiting" so I already know this but, Like I said, I forget...Like I'm not exaggerating. I forget things and pieces of myself and information which in turn brings me to be very....everywhere. though thank you for your input you are absolutely right.

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Also I am fine with being approached first lmao thats actually more preferable.

by [MM] miniatureMapfinder; 1754672832; Report