Coding :/

Trying to learn how to code, and it's so hard. I'll probably just stick to learning HTML for now, but IDK where to start. I want to make fun games (primarily on Roblox), but youtube videos aren't helpful and a lot of the websites to learn the coding language are paid. IDK where to start, but I did find a helpful online course for HTML, so that should be a good place. 

I've been home alone for hours, playing bloxburg and watching the new dexter series (resurrection) in the background. I really liked building on bloxburg, but hated working for the money to build astuff, so I thought Roblox studio might be a decent alternative (it is not, for me personally, anyway.) Though people are getting banned on Bloxburg now because there's an AI anti-cheat wrongfully detecting this and that as cheating. It's not even a competitive game, the anti-cheat is so pointless. I think I'll just go back to Bloxburg for a while though and keep building fun stuff, because to me it's a lot better than the sims. 

I would LOVE to build my own website with HTML though, I just don't know how yet. That and probably trying to get a domain for it would cost money I don't have, I don't really know how it all works, LOL. 

Personally I'm just desperate to create something, anything, like a game, or art, or write a book or short story, something, anything, and share it with people, but I feel like I strongly lack the skills needed to do so. And I bounce between things, probably because ADHD brain, get distracted with something and leave it unfinished and start something new and more interesting. I think the takeaway from all of this is just adderall. Necessity. Please. My attention span is pea-sized and I get fixated on this and that without finishing it. I could have an interest that lasts for months, but the stuff I do with it is very short-lived. I even have trouble finishing stories after writing the first chapter. Feels like I'm going crazy, like it's hard to stay consistent or finish anything at all. I can only do it if it's for school with a deadline, and even sometimes I just don't finish that (though I USUALLY try to, I swear. I hope I won't be like that when I start college.) Anyways, just a life update. BYEE. :3