Purpose in life

The purpose of the following blog was initially intended for personal use. However I'd like to keep it in public mode so that in case anyone out there can find this useful in any way whatsoever. 

Think of any animal that exists and now think about the following: Does it have a purpose? Many of them do. Now im not a biologist or anything related to such, but to my understanding the main purpose for most is to survive. They strive to live the longest possible, producing offspring hoping they can keep on living. Their desire to keep on going is what makes them evolve, obtaining certain characteristics that facilitate their achievement to succeed. 

The same question is applicable to us humans: Do I have a purpose? We are also animals, just a bit hairless, bipedal, and with a different level of consciousness. So why with all this tech advancement, the development of music, food recipes, religious beliefs, politics and other things that make our life soothing, there are still individuals who seem to have a hard time striving in life? To answer my own question, I believe there are a few reasons out there that can explain this:

1. Mental illness
2. Genetics
3. Personal choice to live such way

All in all, they are valid explanations. In my humble opinion, though, there's one more reason as to why some of us feel stuck in life, in some cases it could even be a root cause: Our purpose.

I personally have been struggling with this. As much as I've wanted to, as much as I've worked with full effort, I seem to end up in the same position I was before. Sure I have made improvements, just not how I was hoping to be. I keep falling down, like if I haven't learned my lesson. I am currently jobless, I have half-assed my careers so I don't have any diploma or anything, I am 23 soon to be 24. People will say anything: "Jacob you should have already a career" or "Jacob you're still young, keep on going." My answer to that is that yes, I am still young, just not as young as I expect to go back to college, or to make something out of my hobbies like guitar playing or exercise. I am a failure, I admit it. My family admits it. It's gone to the point where I find no other solution but to die. 

I have been a burden to my family this whole time, I no longer wish to even exist. I truly hope I was never born, at least not in this lifetime. Sure I've met wonderful people, but ive failed them, and in worst cases, I have hurt them. I truly am a terrible person. I guess now thinking about it, my sole purpose was to make a fool out of myself, and be a lesson to all youngsters and other poeole, just like the Bible mentions of bad examples like King Solomon in his downfall. If that's so, then I will accept it. I no longer want to fight against the current, I feel like I have no place in this world.

To everyone out there, find a purpose. It doesnt matter what it is, your purpose can even be to have no purpose and go with the flow. Were not meant to be happy all thr time, but we are meanr to have a purpose, find it. We have no right to hate people, but we do have the right to love one another. Wish you all nothing but success. Life is short. DO not hesitate.

-JJ