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I feel lonely and stuck in the past. I loved a girl for 4 years without getting anything back. Now I’ve finally moved on, but I tried to like someone else and I can’t. I'm too afraid to approach anyone because I feel like I will be treated badly again.
I spent my teenage years rotting in bed and doing nothing because of my depression. I couldn’t go outside because of my agoraphobia.
Now I feel like I’m finally cured, but I also feel like I was stuck in time during those years.
I feel like a stranger to people. Everyone seems to be living their lives—traveling, going out at night, having friend groups to hang out with, having people who actually care about them.
But when I try to make friends, I always feel like I’m annoying them.
I’m scared to be myself around other people, but I just want someone I can be myself with.I feel like I will be alone forever. I feel like I need to hide behind masks forever. I feel like I will never have a normal life. I don't want to be perfect or anything. I just want to be normal and be myself around people I love.I dont want to get sad for absolutely no reason when i go out.I see those couples having fun and i just feel sad and i always feel like i will never achieve that.
I want to care about a loved one. I want to think about them. I want to feel excited when I see them. But I feel like I will never achieve a normal life.I feel like my life is stuck in the past. Why do I feel like I am annoying people? Why do I feel like the people I love will lose interest if I make a mistake? Why can’t I suppress my loneliness with hobbies?
I constantly miss the past. I constantly miss those good years. I really miss when life wasn’t that complicated. I'm really tired of these flirting games. I’m really tired of being ghosted.
I feel stuck and i am scared.
I feel stuck
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Natalie
I’m really sorry you’re feeling like this. It sounds really heavy, and I get why you’d feel stuck. You’re not weird for wanting love or to just be yourself with someone. You’re not alone, even if it feels that way.
Healing takes time, and it’s okay if you’re not where you want to be yet. You’ve already made it through so much. You’re still here, still trying—and that says a lot. You matter more than you think.
You're gonna be okay, all this is temporary
MisterMark
Thank you for sharing something so deep and personal. What you're feeling is valid, the pain, the fear, the longing, the exhaustion.
It makes sense, especially after what you’ve been through.
You lost time to depression and isolation, and now that you’re finally able to breathe again, the world feels like it moved on without you. It’s like everyone else knows how to live, you’re still learning how to start. That’s a heavy, lonely place to be.
But the fact that you want connection, to love someone, to be yourself, to be cared for, says something powerful: you haven’t given up. That’s hope, even if it feels buried under fear.
You're not broken for feeling behind. You're healing. And healing doesn’t come with a set timeline or a finish line, it just asks you to keep walking, even if it’s slow, even if you stumble.
You’re not annoying. You’re just human and craving connection, like all of us. The right people won’t see your heart as “too much.” They’ll see it as honest and beautiful.
You don’t have to play games. You don’t have to be perfect. You don’t have to wear masks forever. You just have to keep being real, even when it hurts.
You're not stuck forever, just for now.
And that will change. <3
Thank you for your comment really! I needed this.
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No problem, thanks for sharing, it's always better to say it than to hold it in. <3
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