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I need a heavy rant, I(18f (first year of college)) think my boyfriend (17m (12 grade)) hates me in some way, he seems so distant, and I haven't seen him in like a month and I made a list of "coincidences" that has happened so far:
1. When I want to see him his mom is never home (she has to be to watch us)
2. His dog into chocolate a couple days ago and he's having a sleepover instead of watching him
3. He takes his friend and our "child" (school child) out on a date, like even for food and shit, and I haven't seen him in a whole fucking month.
4. Let's go back to that sleepover? Why is he allowed to go over for the night but I'm not allowed to go over for a couple of hours??
5. His mom just had back surgery TODAY, and I probably am banned for even longer.
6. Today I asked him if he even wants me to come over, and he AVOIDS THE QUESTION 3 TIMES IN A ROW.
7. He'll make time for everyone else but me, even his online friends, every fucking day, he's playing with them, and when I say something its "oh they asked me to play, you've only asked me twice"
8. Going back to the asking for him to play? Yeah, most times when I do, he's ALWAYS busy. It's "I'm playing with my friends, maybe tomorrow." or "I'm filming a video, maybe tomorrow." And you know what happens? Tomorrow never comes.
9. He called me first, first time in a month, his friend and our "child" talked to me, not him, when the phone was passed to him, he said he needed to go, oh, but our friends can talk longer than you can??? Wow.
There's probably many more that I can't think of, this is all been like these past 2 weeks ish, maybe even just 1 week. I don't know how much more of this I can take, what's even worse, we almost broke up like a month ago too but he said we were okay so I have no idea what the fuck to do or what's going through his head. My chest has been physically hurting because he's hurting me, I don't know how much longer I can take of it, and I haven't been eating or sleeping well. I've barely eaten lunch (maybe 3 or 4 times) this month and I've been going to sleep at like 5 am every night, I can't take it anymore, I don't know what to do anymore, should I talk to him about my feelings? Break up? I'm scared because I love this boy more than anything in the world and I don't want to lose him.
(I apologize for the long rant)
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Hun, you need to sit down with him and ask him if there is anything going on at home. If he says no, then have him account for his excuses. Ask him point-blank if he even wants to continue the relationship. I know that you love him more than anything right now and you don't want to lose him, but you can't be in a relationship with someone who won't even feign an attempt to spend time with you.
MZIH
Give him a break, you are forcing a square peg into a round hole.
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You should sit down and talk to him regarding the points youve made in this post. I feel like the part where he has time for everyone except you and him avoiding your question is extremely worrisome (well all your points are but these just stand out to me)
Try going over your points and explain how they make you feel before talking to him so you can get your emotions across easier. Btww you should explain your health too and your whole last paragraph too because thats incredibly serious
I hope you two are able to work this out and i hope you feel better soon :(
Detective
the whole time i was reading this i was trying to make some excuse that could make this sound better but by the end... i feel like that's a lot of avoiding. you should absolutely talk to him about these feelings. it depends on how he replies to that but i'll leave deciding whether or not to break up to you. ultimately, it's your relationship and your wellbeing at stake.
Detective
the whole time i was reading this i was trying to make some excuse that could make this sound better but by the end... i feel like that's a lot of avoiding. you should absolutely talk to him about these feelings. it depends on how he replies to that but i'll leave deciding whether or not to break up to you. ultimately, it's your relationship and your wellbeing at stake.