life

i havent been here in like a year and i would have absolutely hated myself if i knew my future back then cause now im actually happy and woah im in a relationship and im just doing so much better than i used to its actually insane because i never could have thought id end up here but i kind of feel embarrassed in front of my past self??? in a way???? becaus i just remember the pure hatred i felt towards people who werent suffering because thats all i ever felt and i was just envious and jealous and allat so now its kind of awkward that i turned into the person i used to so deeply hate which isnt even someone horrible its just someone happy