this really hurts

havent been on here in a while,, ive had a busy summer so i havent really had the time

i went on here cuz recently a person in my life has decided to totally 180 how he feels about me, seemingly out of nowhere!! just a few weeks ago he was all talking abt how much he loves me and wants to be with me and all. now hes sayin that hes lost feelings for a while....

he used to say things about how he'd never leave me, and how much he wants a real future together and how hes going to marry me someday. that lasted over a year. the whole time i thought he meant it

we used to talk on here a lot (now we mainly text or instagram message) and going back on here n checking,, all our messages are from months ago. its crazy how stark the difference in how he acted to me & how he is now is. just months ago he was talking about our future and things,, now he doesnt want me in his life at all

idk what im posting this for but it really hurts. at least on here i can look at our old messages and pretend its still like that