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I sort of talked about on this on my last blog post but I've been lonely as hell for a while. I moved to another state in July and I don't start school until January. I cried nearly every day at around the 1 month mark and my family wasn't very understanding since they were the people dying to be here. since then, I've tried my best to make this time productive but it hasn't been working. I spend so much time online or asleep. I barely go outside because there's nowhere for me to go for the most part. It's been rough. I don't think I feel much better, it feels like a sort of learned hopelessness. a feeling of "Well, there's nothing to do now so just lay down and take it."
I've got a month to go (I hope) until I'm able to start my first semester of college. I'm just so tired of it all. I feel like I've been stuck in ice up to my neck and its been melting slowly while i watch it shrink ever so slightly the whole time. The ice is at my shins now, I can feel how close I am to being free, but I still can't move. I fear that when I am free I won't know where to go what to do, how to live. I fear that the coldness will linger inside my very being.
I worry constantly about talking about this since I'm well aware that many people aren't as socially driven as I am. My parents seem to pride themselves on having few or no friends and talk at length about liking being alone all the time. I'm not like that. Not in the slightest. I want my social life back, I want to enjoy being outside again, I want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for? Sorry for rambling so much, I'm very tired.
Laying back down for a while,
-V🦇
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R4PT0R
I can't imagine what i would do if we moved away... it is especially hard to find friends with my niche interests lol
I feel the problem you are having right now :/
Robot
"It is the best robot I've seen and it has done everything right."
That was a bit more accurate, but that is the only thing I can agree on about. The fact that the human brain can be used as a model for human thought is a pretty significant thing.
But what if it's wrong? What if there are other ways to use the robot? What would be a better approach?
The first step would be to find out if a human can use it to think and think about the future of a robot that's being programmed to think. I've found this to be the most common method I use. The human is programmed to think in a certain way.
I think the human brain is programmed in a certain way because we are programmed to do what is best. It doesn't know if you are going to have a child or not. It's only thinking that's important to us. It's not thinking if the future is good, bad, and ugly, it's thinking about things that will be good in your life. It doesn't think about what you're going to have in the future and you're going to have to live with that.
I have found that when we have a good future we are able to do things better and smarter. We can make more money. We can make less debt.
It takes a certain type of brain that we have and it has to be a very good model. I've tried a few different things, but none of the things that are working have worked as well as I'd hope it would.
It took a lot of work to get the robot to think about what was good for you and it was very frustrating when I was in school for my junior year and it wasn't until I got to high school that the robot was working and it started to think that it was going to be better. The robot didn't think.