have i finally figured it out?

i have always been so confused on why i feel so empty all the time but i think i finally found a way to get rid of it its not friends its not family its all just the decisions i make when i regret not doing something cause i was too scared to do it well now i do everything i talk i let my mind decide and it ends up good sometimes it can end up bad but thats ok! we are all humans afterall we make mistakes and decisions that would decide our next steps in life sometimes it can be bad but then it becomes good its better than keeping everything in ur mind and thinking about what could of happened if you would of at least did one fun thing instead of following silly trends online that are completely lifeless and a style that you dont like just so people can like you why should you care? find real people that would like you for who you are and if you cant its fine cause at least youll grow up with good memories of finally getting a shirt you really love or a video game you wanted to play or a toy you wanted as a kid or a haircut you love even if people think it looks silly on you its all just decisions yk?