finished school didnt get in college i'll become a fastfood employee

I finished school....  

 maybe I should be happy?? Like, yeah, years of suffering had passed and I fucking hated school cuz fuck this shit, years of being an outcast and them homeschooled came to bit me back years later, dude, it sucks,, REALLY!!!!                                                                                          

LIKE, so those with different education system will understand, in my country you can finish school at the 9th grade and go to college or stay till 11th grade, thats why i finished school at 16 I'M NOT STAYING THERE 

and I would love to go to college. IF I COULD

 Imagine being rejected from college cuz of your mental illness diagnosis? Well I dont need to imagine that shit happening to me cuz it did. My town has only one college and dammit I would love to get a culinary degree cuz I think cooking is fun all that and it didnt need extraordinary (but I did finish school with good grades and exam scores dont get me wrong), and all I had left is going to college in a city nearby and moving out and I was all for it.. UNTILL MY MOM WAS LIKE "you missed the applications in those colleges, but our local college is still getting students" BITCH THEY TOLD YOU STRAIGHT IN THE FACE THEY WONT TAKE ME. And like, I'm genuinely pissed off cuz I wanted to get an education cuz tf am I gonna tell people? "Hi, I'm Chipsi and I never went to college"? EMBARASSING, DUDE, **EMBARASSING**

and ofc I know I'm not gonna waste this year for nothing, cuz my mom told me I need to find a job and I will find a job just so I wouldnt be financialy dependent on someone.. And I'll save up to go to college next year, definetely out oftown I want to get out of there

Honestly I thought finishing school would be cool but now I just dont really know what to do, school was stability, I knew what'll happen the next day, week, year, but right now I feel like a fish who lived its whole life in a fish tank and suddenly was released into the wild

it'll be hard

TLDR: a 16 year old finishes school and whines about not getting in college and uncertainty of the future.