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I've been questioning myself lately and I think i am aroace maybe???? I mean, I like girls and I've been liking girls since I was 16, also I had some crushes in girls and have been with one, but I don't know. Maybe I am overthinking but something tells me I forced me to like them??? IDK and I feel stupid by questioning myself now since lesbians have been invalidated for like a looooong time. Before I understood I was a lesbian, I thought I was aroace and now I am feeling that I REALLY was/am aroace and only began liking girls because I wanted to have a relationship like everybody else (which sucks).
I don't have ANY desire right now to be in a relationship and before this feeling came back, when girls flirted with me, I would be terrified of them! And then if they got away I would be upset.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
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scez
been going through the same thing around that age, and still somewhat am (im 18 rn).
my problem was that i didnt know if im capable of "feeling" any emotions and if i wanted to date any girls or if i only wanted them as friends.
I still struggle with that question tbh, i was friends with one girl and to cut it short she was basically a replica of me.
We constantly said and thought the same thing and she somehow made a better person out of me.
To sum it up tho, i didnt know if i wanted to date her or if i just liked here really really much as a friend.
My theory is, i was always thaught/ always saw boy and girl getting together if they clicked with each other.
Thats the same reason why i cant differentiate between "do i like her?" and "nah im just imagining things".
one thing i do know is, im able to build a deep bond with a girl, wether its platonic or romantic.
my advice would be, dont think about it to much and just go what you feel is right.
my rule of thumb is (which porbably is really dumb) do i want to do things like hug her, kiss her, etc then, ye i can see myself in a relationship with her.
If not then shes just a good friend.
tbh i dont think the comment seems helpful but if you wanna talk about it you can hit me up
thanks for the advice!
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