Brain Fog

This last week has been really tough.

         On my lunch, I went to the supermarket down the street, and I ran into someone I didn't want to see. He was my old boss, and friend, but almost two years ago he hurt me pretty bad. Psychologically. Physically I was fine. It turns out he has returned to his old job there. I haven't seen him in over a week and it was quite the shock.

         I've been working on processing seeing him so suddenly by reaching out to close friends and getting wasted every night. I don't know if either of those things have helped. I'm sober now though. I ended up exerting myself so much over the last week that I got sick. I don't think it's Covid, but it definitely sucks enough to have snapped me out of my reverie.

         I want to know if the situation he's left me with will ever get easier to deal with. Should I report him? Try to get him fired? Should I forgive him and try to be his friend again? Should I avoid that store for the rest of my life and try to move on? Probably that last one, huh....

         Am I ever going to stop letting people take advantage of me? I would like it to stop.

         Well, I'm okay and safe right now, and that's what matters. Thanks for listening to what's on my mind. Maybe I'll talk about this more later. For now, however, I think I'll leave it at that.