Lil Life update 🙊

heyyy so update this has been a crazy and almost not crazy time all at once like my brain cant decide if its chaos or calm

so I've been hanging out with viel more often but i decided he needs a different nickname so lets call him bolis like the mexican popsicle because they're so yummy and well ill admit he is a yummy thing too and that makes me blush just typing it out (´ε｀ )♡

i really like him he's super sweet but also has this rugged loser vibe that just gets to me and he's smart enough that i can talk about anything with him without feeling judged plus he has clear boundaries which honestly feels so refreshing after everything and he respects mine too which is something i never knew i needed until i had it anyway i love him so much and im planning on moving in with him for multiple reasons and i know people might think im rushing but i promise to be careful with my heart this timeΣΣ⊙▃⊙川

i totally need a job right now though like desperately because adult life is expensive and scary

things are okay with thorn and autumn but there's this weird awkwardness now like i just cant see myself talking to them long term sometimes and its more like this pressure in my throat whenever i think about reaching out because what if they're mad at me in secret what if i did something bad and they just haven't told me yet and that thought makes my chest tight

anyway i have this other friend lets call her cali and i love her so much me and bolis and her are planning on hot boxing the apartment once we move and honestly having friends who just get it makes everything feel a little less heavy you know

But still I feel super upset like maybe I messed up 💔

A lot and there's no way to go Back at least bolis is supportive of Me but I'm still scared what if things end up like my last relationship

ANYWAY STILL LOOKING FOR BESTIES IN OKC!!!