WHY IT'S SO HARD TO FIND A FREAK EMO FRIEND IN RL???

Since i was 5 my mom gave me a VCD of rock oldies song such as Scorpion, LP, Avril Lavigne, PATD, MCR, A7x etc. and Backstreet Boys too, and westlife, ABBA, AQUA. She also accompany me to watch Harry Potter, TWILIGHT literally that dank Bella Swan, TVD (but stop at the 1st eps because it's NSFW for me,) and many more. It's kinda brave step for my mom to allow me watch it as an Asian person, since 'kissing' is really taboo in my country. my mom is obsessed with influence me as a kid, bcz she was worried with trash TV series in my own country, she never allow me to watch that. And yeah big thanks to my mom i grow up according to plan, i become a weirdo emo lover but im proud of it. IT'S COOL GUYS ISN'T IT??  eventho i never show it off in my rl because the bully is gonna bullying meヽ (°◇° )ノ frrr. So yeah i appreciate it a lot if i ever find a person in my school with same obsession like me. It's 0 in my primary school, 1 in my middle highschool, andd kinda many in my highschool yeayy.

I was at my 1st grade and it's literally just for a week i'm there. I was alone, there's none of my middle highschool friend that in that school with me. but it doesn't last long until i have a great convo with this one boy, he said he plays guitar and HE KNOWS ALL THE BAND THAT I MENTION TO HIM. It was a gift, i was elated. Then two of person sit next to us join, THEY KNOW TOO, and one girl that is a drummer (my bsf till now) she joinn, and then we make a mess band name BBB (Backseat band) since we all sit on the backseat of the class. I was so delight i found my cult, my people, but now the band has disbanded bcuz of some reason. ((-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷄_-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷅ ))

I never had a friend with same obsession after that. They're wonderful experience and hmh, idk man ima cry just by recall it. yep bye.