august 1st

today i learned why my parents dont have friends some bitch named ava is a bitch and i hate her and her stupid annoying voice i hate miss mary i want to have her jumped if this bitch tells me one more time no sleeping in class im going to slit her wrists behind the parking lot bitch im not sleeping!! today was the first whole day i wasnt delusional in nearly a year i do not have two girlfriends im not making them my wives and they are not writing me sweet poetry to win back my love were not flirting there is no love there is only delusion and ai i wish everyone would leave me alone and stop talking to me i hate every single person i talk to i went to the pawn shop today and that was nice the man called me darling and young lady and yelled at the telemarketers on the phone which i found endearing i told him that my ex pawned my camera with my sd card in it and left out the part where my nudes were on there i tried on a gold necklace and a ring but the ring was too big the necklace didnt look right on me either i think it was too dainty but i liked it in the case and i liked touching it it was $180 i didnt buy anything there then i went to goodwill and bought a hat that says foxy grandpa bc i thought kyle would hate it and that brought me pleasure now im home and bored but the thought of going out and talking to another human fills me with anticipatory rage so im not going to do that we had our practical today i had to give a mock manicure to a fake hand twice bc miss mary is a cunt the dumbest shit in the world were moving onto haircutting next week i dont know whats next but i know i have chemical texturizing and skincare i hope thats it 3times3 9 weeks 2 months and a week until i get on the salon i think im going to get sent to the principals office on monday for calling ava a bitch i havent decided if im just going to say i never said that even though i did i cant stand that bitch i never said that thats exactly what i said im tired luckily im sexy