Random Blog #8 (Health Vent)

Now I know why it's so difficult for me to find a job.

Not because I don't get accepted or there's no place to apply to. It's not my social anxiety nor depression either. I just get sick, very badly.

I'm just barely recovering from a fever like COVID sickness. Awful headache, medicine doesn't work and I was in my verge of crying every minute. Nausea, body aches constant sweating and hot flashes. Teary eyes, dry throat and runny nose. I couldn't get out of my room much.

I have a history of something bad happening to me (wether it's sickness or physical) every year. There was even a time around 2023 that I could not stop crying for two months straight. Sometimes my back hurts to the point of numbness or I have random bruises in my arms that I don't know where they came from. And all my four high school years, I was nauseous and had a really bad headache.

A few chugs of orange juice, Gatorade, some Tums and plenty of worrying from my parents and sibling have helped me a lot. I feel bad when something happens and they have to go through so much. I'll be well next week, but I don't know what to expect tomorrow.

It's a little scary and unpredictable. And when I'm well, I'm very fatigued and exhausted. I don't want to go to the doctor every time and with what's been going on with ICE (I'm Mexican American) I'm scared.

I don't think I'll hold a steady job with how ill I can get.