Lowkey feeling depressed

Normally I wouldn't blog about this on main, but I kind of have nowhere else to go so here I am.

Recently I ended up publicly denouncing one of my friends for something that made me uncomfortable, which lead to everyone else in my friend circle turning against me as a result. I'm sure it's not everyone, but I don't want to upset myself further so I've been keeping my distance. This has lead to me feeling the worst since last December. My sleep schedule has been terrible, and contrary to the conventional ways people fuck up their schedules, I've been sleeping way too much just to distract myself.

Let me go on a quick tangent. I've been having weird dreams. Weird, self-indulgent dreams. Triggering dreams. Comforting dreams. They've been putting a lot of thoughts in my mind that would otherwise be rationed to the few hours every day I'd be asleep. First of all, I've been kind of relapsing? If being a depressed motherfucker isn't enough, my psychosis has been slowly creeping back to me. It's something I've had to repress for a while now just to keep myself from going crazy. This always happens because dreams are something I can't repress as easily, and it really pisses me off. Luckily though after a good night's rest I usually feel perfectly sane so it could be worse.

But anyways, I've been thinking a lot about the stuff that used to make me happy that I just gave up out of fear of something happening to me. Like running Tumblr askblogs of my favorite characters. Or going thrifting or to the print shop to get stuff to stick in my closet or on my walls. I've been really too depressed to do anything at all, even including basic self-care. I haven't changed out of my PJs in like 2 days now.

I don't know. How do you people get out of these low periods? Do you have any suggestions for things I could do to keep myself busy or whatever? I've been listening to a lot of old Vocaloid songs lately, that's been a little distracting.