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I'm not one to express my feelings or really expose how I really feel... but recently the weight of it has become too much to bear. I'm 16, turning 17 in a month, I graduated high school a year early, and I'm going to college in the fall. I have amazing friends, a job, and the most perfect girlfriend I could ever ask for... but for some reason I still feel, empty?? It's like everyone's lives are moving and I'm just stuck in time. I know deep down I should be expressing my feelings to those who actually know who I am, not strangers on the internet,, but in a way this is more comforting, no one can be baisis, or use what I say against me down the road. I hate opening up, and putting myself in a vuneruable state. I'm worried that if I were to open up to my friends, or even more, my girlfriend, I would be looked at as gross, depressed, useless, a waste of space, and all of those things. Even my own father has told me how to do it correctly, he had lost all faith in me.
I'm not asking for sympathy, or pity from this,, I just want advice, or to know that someone was in my spot, and made it out.
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maciel
my mind linda "clicked" when i was 17 and found a friend group in which i felt like i was actually part of it, and i wasn't just a forgettable person. that's probably one of the biggest privileges you can get as a person.
it's okay to feel lost. i'm always opening spacehey here and there, so if you're feeling weird you can talk to me - but i reaaallly hope you can find someone of trust to talk about your feelings deeply. i know what it is to talk about it with strangers.
Anonymous𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴
May I ask, what did your father tell you? What did he tell you that it seemed correct to you?
It was a few years ago, my father had told me how to c0mmit correctly. Still haven't forgotten him saying it to me.
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what the fuck.
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THAT'S SO FUCKING WEIRD AND MEAN! DON'T TAKE IT TO HEART!
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