i hate everyone

god why are people so insensitive now and im not even exaggerating. its so painfully obvious that people treat me like shit. i hate it, especially when im in class. im one of quietest girls in class and i don't interact with many people, mostly cuz everyone there is so full of themselves. i act "nonchalant" because i dont enjoy talking to anyone there, it feels so draining and miserable. i don't understand why people feel the need to disturb my peace when IM JUST THERE, I DONT FUCKING DO ANYTHING. 

naturally, everyone kind of thinks they can step all over me and say mean things straight to my face because they think it doesn't hurt my feelings. truthfully, i've just stopped reacting and putting effort into giving them a response/reaction they want out of me. its like im some sick joke to them, i hate it. 

 i take those subjects for "smarter" people and these people are insufferable. they got everything and anything they wanted all their life handed to them on a silver platter. they're self-centered and most of them are an only child. so you already how they are.... they lack basic empathy and social awareness. me being a minority race also makes it worse because the amount of casual racism i experienced is unbelievable. 

these people have NO IDEA how privileged they are, they dont believe that casual bullying and racism actually hurts someone. i seriously can't stand these people. welp theres only like 3 and 1/2 months before i graduate and dont have to deal with all this FUCKING BULLSHIT everyday. im going to ghost everyone. i dont even wanna keep my closest "friend" in that class. theres something so fucking wrong with them. 

xoxo, aisha <3