July recap

Ugh. 

Been on mini-holiday in Liguria with friends at the beginning of the month, had fun and felt good and relaxed being away from my family for a few days. Started studying for my September exams and filled my days with books and playing fairies on the sims (meh, could be better). 

My grandma is becoming a bitter old hag while my sister is always so distant. I'm really wondering how I'm going to survive 2 weeks away on holiday with my family. 

Why do I feel so... kind of bored, almost unhappy and definitely annoyed by life itself? Been 20 almost 6 months now and I can tell you that adulthood sucks ass (can you say ass on spacehey? dk, probably yes).

I really wish to reinvent, recreate and deconstruct my personality and my life; considering running away and starting anew. Any ideas for new identity?  

I want a new project or a new fixation. Never been good with hobbies: I have no creative talent and I'm too impatient not to be immediately good at something. Studying is only fun when you don't have exams. Probably going to develop some crush over family holiday to keeping myself occupied (hate men, surely gonna be repulsive). 

I always feel so tremendously funny in a witty/sophisticated way when writing in English. Love it. 

Did I already say ugh?