Writing Oh Writing man What the hell Man Writing? Wow Writing!

Please don't throw that tomato yet, hear me out ;-; 

  I tried getting it published, but it wasn't the type of story agencies would be willing to bet on due to it being 'niche' (that's what they called it at least) especially for a new writer trying to make it in the published world without a following that would surely buy it. So then I hit a wall.

  Creative block hit me like a truck in an isekai anime and brought me to a reality where I was a friggin dirty wet mop that made more of a mess than it cleaned. I had fun writing the big book, it was very close to my life story so it was easy to make, it was more medieval like, and had a group of friends around my age I could relate to.

So naturally, I tried the complete opposite afterwards. 

  A sci-fi with an ageless robot and technology I couldn't even begin to understand, galaxies and galaxies to name and explain and traveling at the speed of light and a plot of adventure with monsters and side characters after side characters... All of this for me to not be able to write more than 500 words a week. 

  I was so mad, asking myself what happened, why go from one extreme to the other. But there were outside factors too. With the first one, I was laid off (big stinky move), so I had the time to focus on my creative battery and stream my process to make me compelled to write and also the time to go outside and get inspiration... when I tried to write the second one, I was working a 9-5 AI job (EWWWW I KNOW IM A WAGE SLAVE IM POOR IM SORRY) in office an hour of commute away from my house, and hated every second of it. I'd come back home too drained and tired and mad that I wouldn't be able to write anything, not even stream or watch anything or go outside and at least have fun.

  Well, it happens you know ahah oh man ahah im so sad ahah (I did cry cuz I was about to buy a house but it wasn't even a house I liked to I guess the universe kinda helped me out?)

  But this gives me more of an opportunity. Not just to look for something that won't drain my creativity dry and possibly be closer to where I live so I don't have to waste two hours reading manhwa on the train.

  I scrapped the sci-fi.

  I know, I know, it wasn't even finished, I had only written chapter 1. And besides, I can always come back to it with a clearer head/mind.

  But I did start writing something else. Something that was not sci-fi but closer to medieval like the first. Something that was not so personal but had elements that I could easily draw from my own experiences. Something that had elements from parts of history I could easily read upon and study for better understanding.

  And now I'm on 15000 words, 40 pages, and hoping.

  I've tried a plethora (love that word) of software to help my writing journey, I'll list them below so you can search about them too if you're looking:

* Google docs or ZohoWriter are perfect online drive pages that easily help organize your book with headings and keeps it simple whilst safe. It's free, has most needed tools and you can write however much you want;

* YWriter is an offline software for those of you that appreciate something that doesn't take wifi to save. It was made by a writer, its free and has a ton of tools that you could deem essential for writing. The software LOOKS outdated but trust me, it was an amazing experience;

* Obsidian is a note taking app you can install to your device and start mapping out your ideas. From creating character sheets to connecting story lines and explaining the world, it's great for those who appreciate a more complex note taking app;

* Milanote is an online white board. As general as that may sound, it is basically a free online page with templates for all kids of things: notes, maps, character sheets, mood boards, story outlines, etc etc. It's great, I'm just starting with it and am already having a blast!

  All in all, I guess the point of this post is that it's ok to not feel good about everything your pen puts down. We as creatives are our own worst critics after all. We just have to understand when we're being objective, and when outside factors are just not making the process fun anymore. Finding that spark can be a long road ahead, but its one you can take on your own time. Remember to drink your water, and I hope you have a great day \o