maybe im the love i seek

 i've realised how much validation i've needed in the past just to function. i've been trying my best to not give a fuck about anything and anyone especially when people say stuff about me. i taught myself to not let these opinions define me because you're not a narcissist when someone calls you one. the world isn't going to end once someone talks shit about you. 

im trying my best to love myself everyday even if its small baby steps. i gentle parent myself to calm myself down whenever something doesnt go my way because WE manage and WE dont take things to heart (YES WE. EXPECIALLY YOU READING THIS RN) 

these hoes dont know nothing about you. they spend 30 minutes with you in class and think they know who exactly you are. they don't know a trail of flowers bloom when you walk ho. they dont know anything about you. 

my mom buys me sanrio tshirts from uniqlo because she said it reminded her of me. the prettiest girl in my school nicknamed me "barbie" because i was perfect in her eyes. all my baby cousins run to me instead of my siblings whenever they see me. 

this is you sign to love yourself and not depend on others for validation because you are EXACTLY THE LOVE YOU SEEK. 

xoxo, aisha <3