i hate being black and emo

don't get me wrong i like being black and i like being emo but being both in either communities is very annoying. in the black community a lot of people say being alt is whitewashed HAVY ON EMO they just assume we're trying to be white and its so annoying. even people that aren't black are telling me i'm whitewashed for being emo. In the emo community we are kinda looked down on or they are just like "oh" and it makes me so sad. i never feel like I'm doing enough to be accepted in even one. when ever I look at my hair after puting on a pretty cool outfit i still feel basic. when i try to get my hair done more alternatively i either get made fun of or they kinda ignore what i wanted. not to mention my face. I have a pretty young looking face so a lot of people don't take me seriously. like that last time i got my hair braided i wanted a bright color and they lady said "you're to young for that" i'm lettering going to the 11th grade!!!  I feel isolated in both groups and i hate it.