Is it just me or…

Y’all, I haven’t post on instagram for like 3-4 months now. idk why everytime I disappear from social media and want to come back to post I get this sudden feel of like fear almost. It’s like mix emotions, that it’s kind of hard to explain at the moment. I have a small following anyways. 

Like am I loosing self esteem? I don’t crave people’s attention nor give af about what others think about me, but then I feel like I’m contradicting myself when I say that, just a little bit. I haven’t got cute in months because I was in a relationship, but even in relationships I don’t try to loose myself from getting pretty and taking pictures when I want to. (Always been independent, so I feel like relationships drain me or stir me away from things I love in life). Besides that, I just wanted to yap about it. 

An angel is loosing her wings, I need to gain them back ag. 😔