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Some days the silence of my loneliness is deafening. I have friends and a million passions/hobbies I want to pursue. Yet I'm still stuck in my room. I love it here. It's quiet and has everything I need but it also feels like a cage. I want to go out, meet new people, explore new cities, and discover new things. I wish I wasn't so entrapped by my own independence and self-made isolation. But going outside is hell. Everything sucks. Everyone sucks. Everytime I go out I can feel that they're burning holes through my face with their judgemental stares. There is nothing to do and nowhere to hide so I'd rather stay inside. In my own cage once again.
I hate it here
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kimii
I get you. For me, being alone is more fun, but there's that nagging feeling in the back of my mind that wants more. There's more to life, there's more to everything, but i can't be bothered to go out and find out, Yet i want to.
PauPetal
I understand you. You want to do things, but every day seems the same. Maybe you'll go out and take 2 steps but it'll also take 2 steps to revert back to your 'cage'. What's stopping you from doing everything you want to do is >>> you
Get rid of the mental block and push yourself. If other external factors are stopping you, like your family, remember that it's your life. Ofc it isn't that simple but it takes a step and a voice
thx for the advice <3 It's mostly external factors but I'll be going to uni in a year so it'll be better hopefully
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Biped
Why do you feel like you are forced to stay in your comfort zone? I get the point, you go outside you get 0 dopamine you come back home and your comfort zone is like heaven, full of dopamine attracting things and most importantly its your personal space.
I apologize but you either break the chains or stay a slave, try to get up one day and start doing something you want, you will end up with satisfaction and then its up to you,
you either go back to your comfort zone and stay a comfy slave
or
you start to do what you want
I'm mostly in my room cause I can't hang out anywhere else in my house due to family issues. I go outside but it sucks cause I live in a place with nothing to do and where most people are racist. I love going outside but once I am outside I just can't stand it but I hate being in room the whole day. I know it sounds stupid
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Right now I try to go on walks but I can't even do that for long or my mom will freak out on me
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