Hard Time in our Own Movie

Slowly im becoming capable of analyzing my own feelings. Everytime we go through circumstances that sometimes we think they prevent us from moving forward, but that´s not true. Throughout my life i have grown by everything that I thought I was not going to overcome. The bad things dosen´t make me stronger, what makes me stronger is my way to get over them. And it´s  because im continuously alert in case something bad happens. Im not used to things going well for me. I want and im starting to value every little thing thats makes me forget about the bad things, but i would love to not be afraid of loving, of having fun and to feel. I like to live because it´s like a movie that lasts a really long time. I´m currently waiting for the end but for not it isn´t coming soon, and i like that have new characters, feel more emotions , unlock new places, because it´s hard for me to live sometimes but if i put an end to it i will have lost the thread of the movie.