Half the year, Half the fun

Wasssupppp, 

so first of all half the year already??? holy shit. I started this account when I was just about to graduate senior high, now here I am almost finishing my first year of university. Time has flown by and as usual I have to try to keep up. Im getting older now (crazy) and yet somehow my mind hasn't changed. I'd say I've become more independent this year than I was last year though, and by that I mean financially independent, which in my case, is spectacular! How am I already in week 2 (almost week 3) of uni??? wtaf. My style I would say Has not changed. But my hair however, has gotten lighter and I even saved Money :D. SOOOO im gonna talk about the elephant in the room, how's volleyball you ask? Well thats a great question, I....I'm not enjoying so much. I realised that maybe (for now) competitive volleyball has been an important chapter of my life and how I grew as a person in face of my anxiety and fears. However, I do realise that maybe in facing these that I dont Want to live my life removing a part of myself in either to fully A) integrate into my team so that they like me or B) feel better about myself. At this point in time, I do feel as volleyball wont grow as much in my life as in most times It has become a chore, like a toxic relationship ( you just keep coming back). SO by next year I do believe that (no matter the FOMO) My goals must stick to either quitting the sport OR sticking to social play. Ok WHEW that was a lot of baggage and that's not even the half of it. its even crazy how this sport played a major factor in my life but in the future it might even be just a side quest. I really thought I was goanna make it high in the divisions yet LOL. Im not saying this because I think I am bad or I have bad self esteem, What i do know is that yes, I am good at this sport I can confidently say. Am I perfect? am I a prodigy? most likely not, and maybe thats what scared me at the start of last year. Its that I was confident in my field and when reality hit me, I was taken aback. But alas, no more volleyball talk, I would say nothign new in life im VERY obsessed rn with resident evil I have played and completed Resident Evil 1 (remake), Resident evil 2 (remake), currently playing og RE2, finished (og Re 3), currently playing code veronica, finished re 4 (remake DUHH LEON IS RAGJHHJHJJ).  I did also just buy re5 and completed re 6 as well. Sooner or later I will start a game review blog about recent games Ive played so!!! cant wait to do that!!! with that I must now do my Japanese homework...

BAI BAI >_<