everything is okay :)

like everything im feeling, 

everything i've ever felt, 

was my own doing, my own wish

anyways im like so pissed cause i feel as soon as i decide to try again im shut down so fast, harder than the last time. ugh then they just leave? i know ive been distant, cold, lately. but im really going thru something right now. plus honestly im just burnt out. and im shaking even admitting this, cause why would i want to feel negatively about someone i care about? im guilty and i feel it too. im unheard because i say nothing

im not seen  cos i try not to be noticed

i dont pick a side so im always over the line. 

ill keep my position though,

ive seen the advantages of it. 

i cant say i know what im doing, but im just gonna keep doing it. maybe one day i wont be camouflaged. maybe one day i'll be seen.