things

hi its been a while um for starters things have been alright not too amazing but not too bad either since the last time i've blogged or whatever, i cant even remember when i last did that but anyway my life isnt that interesting but i guess it never was and it probably never will be. i met this really nice guy and i really like him he's pretty sweet to me it's almost funny how he acts around me and how differently he acts around others. he's told me i make him act like a fool, which i dont know it sounded totally cute to me but anyway he makes me feel super happy and im afraid i have feelings for him, which he also probably already knows since im not that subtle about it but im scared of telling him because one, a lot of people like him and i dont know if i'll like people trying to get with him. two, he's told me relationships for him are scary, which i dont blame him because they are indeed terrifying, and finally three, i'm not too completely sure if he likes guys? especially someone like me. he does make me feel really happy sometimes like he tells me he loves me and that he will always care about me and he always lets me talk about my problems with him and he tells me that he doesnt want me doing anything stupid to myself because he needs me alive and he wants me to be alive for him he doesnt even care about how bad of a person i am he tells me to stop doubting myself and calling myself bad names because i'm not what i think i am and god he makes me stop hating myself so much like ughheuifafk he gets so jealous sometimes and like lowkey thats so cute bruhh i love him a lot and i hope he does love me back too umm aight i gotta go um BYE GUYS