important serious thoughts

chat, should i bring up the hallucinations i get at my doctors appointment tomorrow? i would be scared to because 

1> parents always get pissed and tell me im crazy and overreacting and that what i experience is normal

2> i have them frequently, but its only ever like.  at max 2 weeks at a time that i get a bunch of them and then they stop for a few weeks and i havent been getting them as often now these past few weeks (although just recently i was getting them like crazy)

idk man, they scare the shit out of me because it makes it hard to tell whats real and whats a hallucination and i also get really bad visions and its like. skrjflskfnfkd. not fun

one of my deepest fears is developing or being diagnosed with something like. schizophrenia or some other mental illness with thos types of hallucinations and psycosis, and apparently hallucinations and visions run in my family, so we could very well have some kind of genetic mental thing that makes that happen

im also absolutely terrified of getting sent to a mental hospital or just being hospitalized in general, but like. i dont know what else to do. im really scared of my parents because when i finally got them to try to get me tested for adhd (which we're also pretty sure runs in the family), they made a huge deal of it, and when they finally let me fill out the form for it, im pretty sure they never submitted it. 

i posted this on my tumblr too, in hopes of getting some actual good advice but idk. im just really scared and kind of at a loss. my irl friends say i should definitely tell the doctor but they just dont understand my whole perspective i think

thanks for any advice, bye guys <3